: Kembali :

Hari ini

aku ingatkan nak upgrade sikit wajah blog aku

but..

macam susah pulak..

there's lot of story nak letak

but

still thinking the best storyline

that suitable for this blog..

biasanya

aku

buat sesi luahan perasaan kat blog ni

tapi

i want it to be more POSITIVE

its better for me

and

can be my reminder

nevermind..

if i have freetime

i will create something new..

i have to learn lot of thing

i want to start new days..

bukan omong kosong lagi..

i must force myself to be more hardworking..

i must move faster then others..

your dream is so beautiful

WHY not..

try to fulfill it..

100%

chikbeth

may GOD bless me

: i'm booked :

halu my blog...

yes..

i'm booked for the following date

25-29.10 -- struggling to finish my studio assignment

30.10 -- ethno-botany

31.10 -- final assessment for studio + FINAL PRESENTATION P3

1.11.2010 - 7.11.2010 -- upgrade studio assgnmt + prepare exam SBL2176 + assignmt

8.11.2010 -- EXAMINATION SBL2176

8.11.2010 - 9.11.2010 -- upgrade studio assignment final!!

10.11.2010 -- final assessment @ UTM JB

11.11.2010 -- BIG DAY STUDIO ECOLOGY -PORTFOLIO-

fuh~~ MERDEKA!!

28.11.2010 -- EXAMINATION SBL2312

SEMESTER 5 ENDED

See.. fully booked!!!

pray for me k..

i believe i can do it..

chayok~~

MAY GOD BLESS ME..

regard

chikbeth

: HOMESiCK : no place like home -_-

homesick

based on wikipedia

:-

Homesickness

is the distress or impairment caused by an actual or anticipated separation from the specific home environment or attachment objects.

huh~~

why i write about this today...

because i feel i had this symptom

~feel boring~

~wanna cry~

~heartache~

~stomachache~

~headache~

last week

i'm going back to my hometown to attend funeral ceremony..

remember my 'nek usu'

i beg from u all a prayer for HIM..

but

GOD has invite him to be there with HIM and his siblings..

may his soul rest in peace

back to my topic..

even though only - back for 1 weeks

fuh~~

i feel that sickness...

ya

homesickness

i think its happen to all travelers...

i'm saying that i am a travelers too

hehe

even though i'm here in Kuala Lumpur

ONLY because of work and study

saya nak balik Sarawak nanti bila dah selesai

huh~~

i hate this feeling..

its take almost 1 - 2 weeks for me to recover

every time

after come back from holiday at my hometown

that feeling will covered my life..

huhu

y?

i miss my family or i miss somebody...

yuhuuu..

who is that somebody..??

may i know LORD...

^_-

ermmm...

no..no..no...

i hope not because of somebody

he he

i miss to stay in my hometown..

almost 10 years away

fuyoo..

feeling tired already always travel

everyday....

help me LORD..

take away this feeling..

i'll be back home for Christmas..

luv ya

regard

chikbeth

(-_^)

:OKTOBER :

1 BULaN DaRI SEKaranG

<'cuti sem'>

hehehe

semAnGat, semaNgaT cHikB3th...

chayok!!

chayok!!

sila buat kerja seperti yang dijadualkan

may GOD be with me

regard,

chikbeth

: malas :

Sepanjang hari ini,

aku cuba mencari kenapa aku sangat susah untuk menyiapkan sesuatu kerja

adakah ia berkaitan dengan sikap MALAS

adakah sikap ini telah menerjah kehidupan kerja aku...

kalau diikutkan aku tidak ada masalah melakukan kerja-kerja lain

aku jadi hilang mood bila hendak membuat kerja-kerja ofis..

dapat buat tapi slow

so,

apa yang aku buat??

aku cuba cari bagaimana untuk mengatasi sikap malas ini..

jika simptom2 yang aku alami ini blh menghasilkan sikap malas

di internet sangat banyak cara2..

1) Membuat Tujuan

2) Mengasah kemampuan

3) Pergaulan Dinamis

4) Disiplin diri

antara 4 cara yang perlu di lakukan untuk mengatasi sikap malas ..

jika ingin mengetahui lebih lanjut..

sila rujuk;-

http://beritaku.webkios.info/berikut-adalah-cara-mengatasi-rasa-malas/

ubat mujarab adalah dengan menumbuhkan kebiasaan

mendisiplinkan diri

dan

menjaga kebiasaan positif tersebut.

Sekalipun seseorang memiliki cita-cita atau impian yang besar,

jika kemalasannya mudah muncul,

maka cita-cita atau impian besar itu akan tetap tinggal di alam impian.

Jadi,

kalau Anda ingin sukses, jangan mempermudah munculnya rasa malas.

selamat maju jaya

^be positive^

chikbeth

: decrease graph :

What happen?

anyone want to have this kind of graph in their life??

i don't think so...

and

NOT for me too..

but

but

and but

MY LIFE JOURNEY

heading to decrease sweet moment..

arrgh~~

this graph show what is happen to me now...

its SCARED me a lots...

i try to find WHY this happen to me...

am i become pessimist person nowadays..??

huh~~

i teach myself to be positive..

to be optimist

why so hard to be '+' ??

sometimes

i miss my work as a salesgirl at "FOTOSUN"

erm..'mya zara' version

kerja di kedai gambar

i learned a lot of things there..

i think it is what i love to do..

more to graphic work..

i can entertain customer confidently

people do respect my skills

uncle , auntie , alex - they believe in me

its really make me feel being appreciated..

bukan nak berbangga

but

you know, i can do something..

its really surprise me...

sometimes

couldn't believe that i ever doing things

that make me proud of myself

NOW..

i try to be someone that attract people to hear my words

but

not in doing work...

even finishing my work..

its HARD...

hard

HarD!!

'decreasing' my skills....

I HATE ALL THIS...

all human being had their own determination..

so am i...

BETH you can do it again...

YES!!

and

I HOPE...

THIS WILL BE MY LAST 'NEGATIVE SOUND' BLOG...

be positive beth...!!

you can do it...

i believe in my GOD..

HE will Help me...

I LOVE YOU LORD..

be with me

chikbeth

: KEKUATAN :

Tenaga...

diperlukan untuk menjadikan kita kuat..

tetapi

aku merasa diri aku semakin lemah..

lemah..dan lemah....

aku cuba untuk menjadi kuat..

tetapi

pada akhirnya

aku kembali

LEMAH

BEBAN..

apa beban yang aku pikul

sehingga merasakan ia sangat berat

apa BEBAN yang aku tahan..

sehingga aku hampir kurang daya...

LEPAS~~~

seboleh-bolehnya aku ingin lepasi BUKAN melepaskan..

tapi sampai bila??

aku semakin tak keruan

dengan perjalanan hidup sendiri

lintang pukang

pada zahir orang melihat aku OK

huh~~

keluhan demi keluhan

mendatang

sampai bila

aku ingin menjadi seseorang tapi

cukup sekadar seseorang yang boleh melakukan

sesuatu..

aku baca buku motivasi semoga aku boleh bangkitkan motivasi diri.

aku pandai berkata-kata..

tetapi

kenapa

aku jarang dapat menyatakannya..

aduh~~

masa itu emas..

bagi ku masa sentiasa tidak cukup..

apa yang salah dengan cara ku..

sangat banyak salah...

bagaimana aku ingin mengatur..

??????

GOD help me....

chikbeth