: its hard :

its hard..
to deny this feeling...
i'm writing to express my feeling...
huh~~
how to say it arh...
i say please heart don't show that feeling..
but
my mind keep working
and always make me feel it...
huh~~

i become blur..
not because i'm not in shopping mood
the feeling disturb me
i'm trying to avoid that feeling...
its really hard
i never feel this before..
its really hard
am i think about it to much..
am i putting really high HOPE for it..
where can i have STRENGTH to overcome this feelings..
i want to stay with the feeling but.. i should not do that...
i kill my feeling...
arghhh~~

i need JESUS to help me overcome this feeling...
i need JESUS to help me so that this thing will become easier...
JESUS LOVE is the greatest...
HE lets us share this wonderful feeling...
i don't know where i can share it..
maybe here is the best way..
sometimes its help me..
i write and i talk to HIM..
this is my prayer LORD

i believe in u LORD..
i want to be at my hometown but...
its hard to be here naturally..
am i acting to be who am i now...???
where is my real attitude?? character?
i need WORK to make better future..
i need MONEY to built my future..
but
I want JESUS to be with me..
with HIS LOVE fulfill my life..
no matter what..
whether
its really in a good time
or
hard time...

HELP ME LORD...
amen

chikbeth

: tak sabar :

aduh..duh..duh
aku rasa.. kalau aku ada kuasa untuk memutarkan masa...
harus aku putar hari ini sudah hari sabtu..
kenapa tak isnin..
sebab..
sabtu aku ada hal nak buat..
then..
hari2 bekerja yang dah hilang mood..
physco sungguh..
mana nak cari mood nak siapkan kerja..
beri masa sekejap lagi lar..
after siap kan luahan kat blog ni lar...
huhu

bukan apa takda mood juga..
sebab kena buat perkara untuk kerja awal tahun ni..
that day dah buat tapi.. kena reject.. sebab tak perfect..
hah~~ macam mana orang tak gelar aku ni
'perfectionist'
dah buat.,,yang terbaik tapi.. huh~~
nak lagi baik..
menyebabkan perkara ini immune
dengan aku...

ada baik..ada buruk..
baik ...if aku sorang yang buat..
buruk ..if buat kerja berkumpulan
tapi tak semua macam tu.. ada yang nak buat yang terbaik..

huh~~
harap lepas balik dari bercuti ni nanti i dapat la
semangat yang lagi bersemangat..
untuk bekerja...
dalam pengurusan..
keyakinan..
study juga..
studio...tu..chayook~~
in GOD...
love Him..love u.. love everyone..
^_^

: cuti :

semester pendek
dah tamat...
sekarang sudah tiba masa FOKUS.. kerja pula
tetapi
macam belum dapat mood lagi..
huhu
banyak benda/kerja aku nak buat...

mana nak 'sedut' semangat nak buat kerja ni..
huhu
ker
kepala aku dah pikir nak balik sarawak...
hahaha
seharusnya...
tapi kena bersabar lu...

okla..
nak buat kerja slow2..
ye la..
if
tak start..
sampai bila pun tak settle...

orait..
chow..

luv ya

chikbeth